a late post from me..... for last two days....

Yesterday was Tuesday.... Hehe, I was lazy a bit to switch on my computer... So, I will post 2 posts on my blog today. Erm, since that I am tired now, so.........COPY and PASTE la~

Today, I am really believed that I dislike my 1^st week of 2012. I can’t withdraw my money from my account.  I forced to find my parents and brother for solving this problem. I have to save money as I have to pay the debt. Hoh, I have so many debts to pay.

Err; I hope that I can stay away from Tanjong Malim and Sibu now, just like my brother.  He is very pro as he can stay outside without homesick. I think most of time I miss my hamsters and home a lot. I stay away from Tanjong Malim as I don’t think that there is anything that can make me to stay here.  For Sibu, I don’t want to meet any seniors here except Li Zhen and Janet. Haha, they are too good for me.  But, I think it is for temporarily.

Now, I am really panic on my future that I will trap in UPSI! I really do not want to be a teacher although my friends choose to be a teacher. It seems that I forced to be alone. I hope that I can continue my study in other university for enjoying life and gaining more life experience.  I hope that I can be a student of USM, UTM or UKM. These universities made me so happy. Hehe, if there is anyone can sponsor me to study in foreign countries; I will be very thankful and grateful.

I want to congrats myself as I already let go him and give myself one chance to alive.  I can feel the scar is getting better and the painfulness is getting less.  Is this sound great? Yes, I think.  I really hope that I will not play fool on myself anymore.  Suddenly, I really hope that Stephanie can have her true love in this year. Huhu, I hope it won’t be him seriously. Haha, she really can be good friends with them if compared with me and Amy. Haha, it seems funny. Never mind la, I will resign sooner. Phew, this is my important decision in this year too. I hope I can practice it. I have been not going to Catholic Church such a long time ago. My desire for going back to the lovely church is not getting less. In addition, it becomes stronger and stronger. It’s the time for me to back to God’s hug and Mary’s love.

Death is a new way for the phase of making self better.  I love this sentence.  Haha, I admitted that I thought many times about death. But, there is a voice to prohibit me to do that. I confessed this before and Father asked me the reason. I was speechless. I am hurt by surroundings badly. I really don’t know and I can’t remember what depress me so much.

I am falling in love with Jolin Tsai’s song which is “Tuo Xie” (Surrender) and Chen Shi Ann’s “Tian Hou” (Queen of Heaven). “…Love made me like a puppet, Love made me surrender, Love made me trapped and you are being pulled, History is repeated, I am so tired with this….”