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A conclusion for 2011, a BRAND NEW start (2)

Haha, I finished my task just now. I gave a greeting to everyone... Almost 100 person I greet. Hoh, it is quite tiring as there are too many person I wish to greet...  I almost finished read my books that I bought last 2 days except the Jiajia's Secret. Haha, almost all are comics and there are many images inside them. Hmm, I am the one who behave like a kid. My friends bought the books that are totally fiction or fully written in words. And me??

Now, make target here now for 2012. I hope I can do/ have these in 2012:
(a) Get 3.5 and above in my CGPA;
(b) hamsters can give birth;
(c) know more people;
(d) walk around in more places;
(e) not losing any friends anymore;
(f) my juniors and seniors can enter into UPSI;
(g)  save money for travelling and my Xperia Arc S.............

Actually, I still got many targets but these are my main targets. And sorry to LOVE... I think I cant put you as my main target as I am still young and you neither didn't say anything nor take any actions. Maybe we met at the wrong time. If not, I will appreciate you as well. Nevermind, I can put you as my brother. Haha, having brothers is a good thing.

I wish I can!
But if you take the action, maybe I will change my mind....

In Christ, we are family! 

















Prepare for fight for 2012!

A conclusion of 2011, A brand new start (1)

Today is 31 December 2011. Erm.... It is the last day of 2011. I have a lot to say to 2011 and I have so many wishes to 2012. Let me do a monthly conclusion for 2011.


JANUARY 2011
I almost lost my mum in that accident. I was not tough enough to face this sudden incident. Can you imagine that facing the loss of family is the most painful obstacle that I never met before? Luckily, I has a lot of friends to give me support, caring and helping. I am so grateful to have you all. 
FEBRUARY
I lost a friend in my life. I will always remember her as the best friend and sister. Although I am not so close to her, she influenced my life a lot. My regret is I cant accompany her in her last life journey. I was so sorry about this.
MARCH
I received my SPM result. I was very disappointed on my result but I was shocked that my Science subjects are B+ grades. In addition, the 1119 grade was......! I was prepared for applying the SPA or continue my study in Form Six. 
APRIL
I was exhausted! I was so tired to doing the work during members' day. So tiring and made some mistakes. No next time.
MAY
It was the month of my birthday and I started my Form Six student's life. I went to Kapit for my SPA interview. I was so lonely on my birthday. There was nobody wished me. But, I was also kept silence on that and expecting some miracles happen. The truth is NO.
JUNE
I was in UPSI. I was so hard to say goodbye to the friends and I experienced many things through the process. It is the first time I stepped on the foreign land. I was so frightened. But, Siew Li kept on encouraging me. Thanks a lot on the encouragement. I also felt sorry on my parents. I left my sick mum alone in home..... She kept helping me in everything before I departed to Kuala Lumpur. I was so homesick when I was in hostel. My tears were flowing like the tap water. It was the 1st time I did not celebrate my brother's birthday.
JULY
I had my net book lastly. I was trying my very best to adapt the life here. I knew few Chinese, which were Erica, Belinda, Eva, Yuann Chi, Shiu Man, Stephanie, Amy, Joyce and Helen. This is the 1st time I knew so many Malays from different states. I was so ashamed on what did I do in Taman Bernam.... I lost at there...=.= I joined a camp that organised by KHAR and I was badly injured on my arms and legs.
AUGUST
I went to Puchong where is my brother's working place. I was so happy that I can see so many handsome and Chinese here. Haha, it is a good place as there are so many Chinese here although they are Cantonese and I am poor in Cantonese. I had a great time here.
SEPTEMBER
I was busy on preparing for final exam at the end of the month. Before that, I had a camp in Teratak Riverview. The night game was so nice and I wish that I can have that once more! But, I was injured too. I experienced sun burnt on my arms and face. I wish to play water in that river again. This month is the month that Degree students entered and the church activity activated! This is the month that we first met.
OCTOBER
Yes, I finished my final exam and I was ready to back to Sibu for one month. That feeling even stronger when I was in departure hall in LCCT. It is so great in home. I had a great time with my family and hamsters. Haha, sister was also back to the home. I bought some souvenirs for family, Eric and John. 
NOVEMBER
Oh, no! I had to come back to UPSI again..... It is hard to me to leave the home, family and hamsters. A female hamster who named White White was lost. I believed that it is finding me as it is missing me. Haha, I must be the best mistress to them. My pointer was not achieved that I expected but I can do it better! Hish, I start my 2nd semester unhappily. The timetable is so........ What a mess!
DECEMBER
It is the last month of 2011. Hope that I can have my sweet memories in this year. I went to the Miles for Christmas carolling. I also went to Mid Valley and Sunway Pyramid. Oh, I am a AB typed person. =.= But I cant donate my blood due to the my dad's Hepatitis B. I forced to take the test again to prove that I am a healthy person.  I have to pay the 'loan".....T.T
LASTLY, say goodbye to 2011 and say hi to 2012.....

Missing you, KONG YU YAN @ SIAO JIN

Yu Yan, it has been 10 months...  I miss you badly. I think Wan Yin, Siu Cheng and Jing Wen also miss you badly. Your leaving is our loss. My heart and my mind cant accept your absence in our life. Sometimes, you are  standing beside me, right? I chose to express my sadness here as there is nobody will see the post here and I am so lonely. Haha, I thought Sing Wei is the angel that you sent to me. But, I found that he is not my angel and he is my little brother. At first, I really cant accept that he was keeping finding me for express his miss to you. It is not truth if I am saying that I was not jealous or envy on you. Times after times, I accepted the truth slowly. You were the centre of positive minded and inspiration. You gave us a lot. I also already know the reasons that you liked to share. I am so sorry that I know it lately. But, I really hope that I can hear your voice again in my dream. It was being so long you were not visit me since I am studying in UPSI. When I was back to Sibu, you were also not visit me.

Today is a rainy day, i think. I always remember that the day you left and the two days after that are rainy days. The sky was also crying of your leaving. We were not tough enough to accept your leaving without any signals. I think you were so happy that Victor got 8A's in his PMR exam. Is that a great new to you?

Yan.... I still wondering that is that my angel? I don't know what is the feeling to him. Am I admire his potential in playing drums or what? I shared it with my friends here, they said that I must be fall in love already. It seems like a ridiculous fact, but I was so shy and embarrassed to hear this. Haha, this just like the incident between Sing Wei and me last time. But, this time is different, i think. He is elder than me and he got some actions too. But, I forced myself to believe that it is normal and he treats me as his sister. I do not know him well. I really wish that he is my angel but he is not taking any action. Haiz.... What should I do with him? Yan, can you tell me in dream tonight? I will waiting you. I believe that I am charming enough.. Hehe.... You also use others' mouth to tell me the truth. I think you better use Stephanie's mouth to tell me the truth. She is my room mate and she is brave to tell anything, just like you. But, you are more special than her.


YAN,
YOU ARE ALWAYS SPECIAL TO ME,
YOU ARE ALWAYS PRETTY IN MY MIND,
YOU ARE ALWAYS LIVE IN MY HEART,
YOU ARE ALWAYS THE CUTEST,
I LOVE U FOREVER!
MY FRIEND, LET US BE SISTERS NEXT LIFE ROUND!
THANK YOU FOR LIVE IN MY LIFE.
THANK YOU FOR ACCOMPANYING ME IN MY LIFE.
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY CANDLE AND LIGHT IN MY LIFE.


THANK YOU FOR COLORING MY LIFE.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
I MISS U FOREVER!

*When I am thinking of you, the miles between us disappear... Happy birthday! I will remember you

Do u remember this? You wants me to be a master of my life.
 It's my 16th  birthday gift. Thank you, yan.

This is the only picture that I took with you.
I admit that I was influenced a lot by you.
Thank you for being my friend and taught me a lot.

My heart, my feeling

Haha, it is being such a long time not write any post at here. These days, I was alone in my hostel until last 2 nights. Erica was back from her Genting's trip. We had our great time in our hostel. Haha, we did a great cleaning in our house. Hehe, what to do? I did that as I was boring and I cant accept that I cant join my lovely house's year end cleaning this year. That's why I cleaned my house and I am so satisfy with my work. I gave myself 90% on this. Haha, my house is so clean and tidy.

Yesterday, I was going out with Belle, Erica and Eva. Unluckily,Shiu Man cant join us as she back to KHAR on 30 Dec. We had going to Mid Valley and Sunway Pyramid. Thanks be to God, we arrive at KHAR safely and happily. Hehe, I bought many books yesterday. Most of them are Gemeilia. Haha, it seems like I still a child. But, I am a little bit disappointed as I cant find the book that i have to pay back to the library. So sad... I am still happy that I can learn so many yesterday. The most unforgettable thing is we kept on finding lockers in Sunway Pyramid and Mid Valley. It is so ridiculous and terrible as we are so tired of finding this. Haha, that means most of our time is not shopping and it is FINIDING the LOCKERS! In conclusion, I am so happy with this trip la~ Love you all, always!

I cant understand what happened between us. Is there any chemical change between us? Why can you spoiled my Christmas Eve and Christmas so easily?  Both of us are girls but I am wondering that your bravery is so strong than that I expected. I dislike the way you do this to us. Although you locked the post, you hurt us so badly. You asked us: Is that we needed for? But, before that, did you think of yourself? You always got mad on us and we were not daring to speak with you. You never think the correct way to express your anger. You may share the problems with us and we are ready to hear it. But, you chose to be silent and we cannot know what are you thinking in your mind. We do not have any magic as well. You know, I was in bad mood when you sent the message and the post. I was thinking that, my level of tolerate is at which level? This made me see the level and I was so sad and heart broken like the pieces of glass that hit on the ground. You are already 18 and not more a child. You have to carry your responsibility as well. I really hope that you can change your attitude.

These days, I was thinking and feeling so sorry with the guy and the girl. I am so sorry that I was speaking it in wrong ways. But, I am really hope that I can get the forgiveness from you two. Sorry! I should take care of my mouth.

my Raya holidays

 

I am at Puchong with my brother during my Raya holidays. I am too bored and afraid to stay at KHAR since that I do not have my closer friend to talk with. Besides I want to know more places since I am at East Malaysia.

I went to my brother's house on Sunday afternoon as he just can fetch me at that time. I arrived his house around  4 pm. He brought me to Central Market and Myydin Supermarket because he did not have raw materials in his kitchen. After that, he cooked spaghetti for dinner. He is a good cooker.

At the second day, he went to work. I have promised my mum that I will clean his house if I stay in his house. I cleaned it and tidied it too. Well, I was quite tired on that day. I was never do the all housework by myself alone! It was my first time to clean the house alone. I was cleaning my room only before I came to here for srudying.

Next day, my brother was not working and he brought me to go to IOI mall for shopping.  It is a nice place and I was very enjoyed. We were watching a movie together and buy things together. I was glad as finally I bought two books that I like. I found them in the bookstore many times but they were sold out. I feel very lucky and happy~

There was no people inside the mall when we arrived at there. We arrived at there at 9.15 am while the mall opens at 10.00 a.m.?!!!

                                              Let us rest and go!!!

Ermmmm.... It seems so comfortable~~~~~ 

Wait a minute! Please pay RM 1.00 before you enjoy the massage chair.......

Reject shop??? Actually it is a clothes shop named "reject".... Interesting?

There are so many clothes. Unfortunately, I did not buy anything at here. 

This is the two books that I bought that day. The book at the left is "The Brother and The Sister" while the book at the right is " Twin Leaves". They were interesting.





And the next few days, I am busy with the assignments since that I was resting for few days. Haha~ By the way, wishing all my friends Happy Holidays, Selamat Hari Raya, Happy National Day~

REST AND GO GO GO!!!!!

a meaningful lesson with Chemistry lecturer

Today, we have our chemistry lesson. Madam Yusnita distributed the marked test papers to us. We were very stress when she commented on our test. Our test held on 7 August which was Sunday. I was less confident after I took the test. Madam had set the target that she hope all of us can get A in this test before the test.

I was so upset when Madam said that there was three students failed in this test. After that, she asked that whom think that he or she will fail in this test and raise up his or her hands. I wanted to but my mind say no.  She gave us many feedback about the university life. She shared many things about her process to be a PhD now. She aimed that we know that it is the time for INDEPENDENT and BRAVE. She also wanted us always to be prepared for everything.  We should control our life now. We should be independent to do our revisions and brave enough to ask. We should not wait for answers and let the time passed like that without do anything.

Madam archieved her PhD in this year and she is 38 years old. She asked us that how long we need to archieve a PhD like her?  The answer is TWENTY YEARS! For her, twenty years are long way to lead on. Although she did not get a good result in her SPM, but she worked very hard to get her PhD. She has to take good care of her family, teaching and so on. That is why she wonder the reason of we cannot get good result in the test as we do not carry many burdens like her. Beside that, she also wonder our level of  understanding to her teaching. Although we can do every exercise that she given, but we did the mistakes on simple questions. This made her very angry.

In conclusion, she wants us to turn a new leaf. She wants us to perform better in next test. Some of her quotes made me unforgettable which are:
(a) "Jangan sombong bodoh, kamu sendiri yang rugi nanti."
(b) " Chemist is try. That's why it called Chemistry."

This lesson made me learn a lot. I learnt to be a INDEPENDENT and BRAVE person either in class or in reality.

Lend your eyes and heart

Today is my first day to "puasa". Although I still got eating and drinking, but I believe I can do it slowly.  In this morning, I think many about myself.

First is about the National Service Programme. I was so curious on the will of God at that time. Why I cannot get the offer from government???? At this moment, I know it already. I found that I cannot take good care of myself after I joined the camp. I am the one that will always got injured in the programme. Haha, God's will cannot be denied.

Secondly is about my assignments. I believe that I got very low marks for my assignments especially Information Technology. I did not know the reasons. I always feel tension with the assignments. I submitted the assignment and I cannot reached the target. It made me so disappointed and upset for few days. I tried my best to search for the answers. But, it is always different with others. I am still thinking that I will fail in my Information Technology exam. But, I hope no. I hope I can score at least a pass in my IT exam later.

Thirdly is about my homesick. I always feel like to go home with my friends as they can back to their hometown during Raya holidays. I am so envy with them. I cannot go back to Sibu as the flight ticket is too expensive than I expected. When my family telephone me, I miss my home so much. Sometimes, I also regret that I am coming too far. But, I also know that there is no way to back the original place anymore.

Lastly, I become more stressful when I heard that the assignments and the tests MUST BE finished before or  in 12th week. It made me not be joy anymore and not enjoying my university life. I hope that I will not get mad in this continuous situation. I want somebody or anybody lend his or her ears to me. I am totally lost my confidence in myself.

Experience in PLKN Selangor

Last Saturday, I joined a two days one night camp that was organised by JMK KHAR. It took place at Kem Bina Semangat Yayasan Selangor, Kuala Kubu Baru, Selangor. I aimed that I want to gain more experiences and knowledge on camping since one of my course in this semester is about camping. We had briefing in Friday night which was the night before we went to camp.

There were 40++ participants that were including exco joined this camp. We departed from KHAR to our destination at 930 am. We arrived there at 1000 am. After that, we had a talk from the camp manager, Mr. Sam. Then, we started our activity.

The first activity is "rempuh rintangan".  There were 16 obstacles for us. After Mr. Zaiful which was our trainer, explained every obstacle, we started the amazing explorance.  I was in 1st group. During the activity, I fell down from 1st obstacle which is not high. Actually, I did not know why my mind became blank when I did it. When I realized, I was on the ground and my head felt a little bit painful. I continued another obstacles till the end. My group members which were so worried about my condition wanted to wash my wounds. But, I was refused due to my fear to Dettol!!!! My friends told me that everyone was shocked on what happened on me. I did not know that as I was a little bit dizzy at that time. I was very enjoyed with the activity although I was the one injured the worst in my group.

After we had our lunch, we had explorace that needed us to use compass. In this, we learned  the ways to read compass. We were the 2nd group that finished the task. I was so glad with this. Haha....  I was glad that our group got a good leader and there were full cooperation between us. The thing that I unforgettable is the worms. It was my first time to hold the worms. Mr. Zac wanted every girls hold the worms for a while. Oh my gosh, this is the first sentence in my mind when I heard it. Luckily, I was too calm as I was panic till do not know what to do.

Next, we had our private time. I found that my wounds became very painful after I took my bath.Then, my friends "pulled"  me to meet with AJK 3K. At first, I refused and ran away from them when I saw them took the Dettol. I surrendered as I was alone and cannot "defend" myself against them. At last, I wanted to kick people.......

After this, we played a game called spider web. It was a little bit hard for me as I was not clever enough to solve this although it was a team work game. At the end, we had solve this successfully!!!

At the second day, I woke up with painfulness. I did not know the reasons. We had jungle trekking after we had our breakfast. In this, we knew many things that we never know although it is near with us. At the same time, I thanked to God for willing me to join the camp as He made me know the amazing of this nature.

We had our lunch at there. After the closing ceremony, we packed our things and back to KHAR. I learned that the friendship, teamwork and many things. At here, I want to say THANK YOU to all my friends!!!  I will keep this memory forever!!!

HAPPY, FRIENDSHIP FOREVER

Eva, me, Shiu Man say CHEERS (left to right)

A day in Kuala Lumpur

Since there was 9 days for holidays, my friends and I planned to have one day trip at Kuala Lumpur. Actually, one of my friends, Belinda wanted to meet her friends that were from Miri. She misses them so much. But, her mother did not allow her go alone. Eva and I be volunteers to accompany her to go. At the same time, we also want to visit Kuala Lumpur.

We depart from KHAR to KL by using bus at 9.30 am. We arrived Pudu Raya Bus Station  at 11++ am. At there, we also waiting for another friend that joined us too. After that, we went to Times Square by using monorail. Haha, I was so happy to see the KLCC and KL Tower.

And then, we had our lunch in a Korean restaurant since we were so hungry. We were so enjoyed with our lunch at there. We had kimchi and udong at there. Then, we went to walk around there as we had a date with the Harry Potter movie at 4.00 pm.

I was searching for my suitable sport shoes at there. My friends were searching for their needs too. It was too glad when I found a pair of sport shoes at last. Later, we went to cinema to watch movie till 630 pm. Then, we were walking around again for finding the way to back to Pudu Raya Bus Station.

We departed from KL to KHAR at 800 pm. Thanks to God for giving us a chance to visit KL and ensured our safety.

Shiu Man and I

Haha, I was enjoying my udong.

Holidaying

Yeah~ Finally, I am holidaying now. Although it seems short, for me it is a process of amazing and busy days. Firstly, I have to complete my TITAS presentation by improving the shortages. Secondly, I have to prepare for my TITAS report on the importance of knowledge and technology in formation of civilization. Next, I have to busy with pengucapan awam BM. Last week, I cannot wait for such long time as I have a date with PTPTN. Then, I have to carry out my presentation after holidays.

I am so excited when I know that my friend from Sibu is coming to UPSI for her convocation. Such a long time, I did not see her after I saw her at supermarket. I found that she is really friendly and nice people~ Every senior know her and praised her a lot!

Last few days ago, my friends that were waiting the results for the universities were very EXCITED! It is because most of them got same university but different courses. The university is UNIMAS. I am a little bit sad due to a little of my friends got offer from UPSI. Besides, their colleges are in College of Za' ba which is far from my college! I think I can see them very soon in campus. I am waiting.......

My 1st month in Perak

Yeah, I am so glad that I have a laptop already. My brother gave me his laptop to me. Fortunately, he is not using his laptop now. He is planning to buy a new laptop for himself.  I am happy too when I can meet with my brother. I am so touching as he bought me the stamps for PTPTN and brought the laptop here from Rawang.

I did not know why I am laughing for whole day. Maybe I am very happy with my friends today. They are Erica Chung, Yuan Chii, Belinda Tang and Eva Kho. My friends that are in Sibu also called me today as they finished their exams today. My ex- seniors also know the universities that they will study. I am very hope my seniors that applied UPSI can get the offer.

Now, I  learnt to take good care of myself, wash own clothes, spend money wisely and many things that I learnt here. Although it is difficult, now I can accept all these and no more serious homesick symptoms.

In conclusion, I am happy that I learnt a lot here, having many friends from different states and appreciate everything include time and my family.