Missing you, KONG YU YAN @ SIAO JIN

Yu Yan, it has been 10 months...  I miss you badly. I think Wan Yin, Siu Cheng and Jing Wen also miss you badly. Your leaving is our loss. My heart and my mind cant accept your absence in our life. Sometimes, you are  standing beside me, right? I chose to express my sadness here as there is nobody will see the post here and I am so lonely. Haha, I thought Sing Wei is the angel that you sent to me. But, I found that he is not my angel and he is my little brother. At first, I really cant accept that he was keeping finding me for express his miss to you. It is not truth if I am saying that I was not jealous or envy on you. Times after times, I accepted the truth slowly. You were the centre of positive minded and inspiration. You gave us a lot. I also already know the reasons that you liked to share. I am so sorry that I know it lately. But, I really hope that I can hear your voice again in my dream. It was being so long you were not visit me since I am studying in UPSI. When I was back to Sibu, you were also not visit me.

Today is a rainy day, i think. I always remember that the day you left and the two days after that are rainy days. The sky was also crying of your leaving. We were not tough enough to accept your leaving without any signals. I think you were so happy that Victor got 8A's in his PMR exam. Is that a great new to you?

Yan.... I still wondering that is that my angel? I don't know what is the feeling to him. Am I admire his potential in playing drums or what? I shared it with my friends here, they said that I must be fall in love already. It seems like a ridiculous fact, but I was so shy and embarrassed to hear this. Haha, this just like the incident between Sing Wei and me last time. But, this time is different, i think. He is elder than me and he got some actions too. But, I forced myself to believe that it is normal and he treats me as his sister. I do not know him well. I really wish that he is my angel but he is not taking any action. Haiz.... What should I do with him? Yan, can you tell me in dream tonight? I will waiting you. I believe that I am charming enough.. Hehe.... You also use others' mouth to tell me the truth. I think you better use Stephanie's mouth to tell me the truth. She is my room mate and she is brave to tell anything, just like you. But, you are more special than her.


YAN,
YOU ARE ALWAYS SPECIAL TO ME,
YOU ARE ALWAYS PRETTY IN MY MIND,
YOU ARE ALWAYS LIVE IN MY HEART,
YOU ARE ALWAYS THE CUTEST,
I LOVE U FOREVER!
MY FRIEND, LET US BE SISTERS NEXT LIFE ROUND!
THANK YOU FOR LIVE IN MY LIFE.
THANK YOU FOR ACCOMPANYING ME IN MY LIFE.
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY CANDLE AND LIGHT IN MY LIFE.


THANK YOU FOR COLORING MY LIFE.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
I MISS U FOREVER!

*When I am thinking of you, the miles between us disappear... Happy birthday! I will remember you

Do u remember this? You wants me to be a master of my life.
 It's my 16th  birthday gift. Thank you, yan.

This is the only picture that I took with you.
I admit that I was influenced a lot by you.
Thank you for being my friend and taught me a lot.