Today is my first day to "puasa". Although I still got eating and drinking, but I believe I can do it slowly. In this morning, I think many about myself.
First is about the National Service Programme. I was so curious on the will of God at that time. Why I cannot get the offer from government???? At this moment, I know it already. I found that I cannot take good care of myself after I joined the camp. I am the one that will always got injured in the programme. Haha, God's will cannot be denied.
Secondly is about my assignments. I believe that I got very low marks for my assignments especially Information Technology. I did not know the reasons. I always feel tension with the assignments. I submitted the assignment and I cannot reached the target. It made me so disappointed and upset for few days. I tried my best to search for the answers. But, it is always different with others. I am still thinking that I will fail in my Information Technology exam. But, I hope no. I hope I can score at least a pass in my IT exam later.
Thirdly is about my homesick. I always feel like to go home with my friends as they can back to their hometown during Raya holidays. I am so envy with them. I cannot go back to Sibu as the flight ticket is too expensive than I expected. When my family telephone me, I miss my home so much. Sometimes, I also regret that I am coming too far. But, I also know that there is no way to back the original place anymore.
Lastly, I become more stressful when I heard that the assignments and the tests MUST BE finished before or in 12th week. It made me not be joy anymore and not enjoying my university life. I hope that I will not get mad in this continuous situation. I want somebody or anybody lend his or her ears to me. I am totally lost my confidence in myself.
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